Oh Hello All….
I know, I know I’ve been MIA for a while. So this post is going to be all about what’s happening in my life and recommitting to posting every week.
Update One: I quit my job.
I finally finished up all but one of the requirements to join a local collective and saved enough money to leave my position as a personal care assistant. Don’t get me wrong, I loved my little old people and plan on visiting them in the near future, but I felt with all my heart that I couldn’t commit myself to my clients while working at a job that kept me from them up to seven hours. Mini backstory: I was working a case that was 24/7 meaning I couldn’t legally leave anytime I needed to be with a laboring mother. Also the company had a 3 strikes your fired policy involving calling in to say you wouldn’t be there. On top of all that the mundane was driving me crazy! Just sitting there watching the same shows, reading new books, doing the same thing everyday really isn’t my thing. Before this position I worked three jobs, was taking an online class, and was planning a trip to China. So, while the consistent paycheck was nice the job just wasn’t for me.
Anyways, now I am out and about trying to grow my business. I have all the free time in the world and still don’t have any clients. Obviously I’m not giving up but it is a little depressing. I’d love to jump right in and sign some contracts right now, but patience is a virtue, right?
Update Two: I am trying to find myself and my spirituality
I’ve been reading books and taking online classes. It actually is making me sweat writing this right now because this topic is somewhat taboo, and I’ve always been of the mentality of trying to get everyone to like me. When I say that I’m trying to find myself I mean: I show different sides to different people but don’t know which side is truly me. What aspects of these sides is my true self? What do I really want from myself? What is the person do I want to show to the world? Do I have the courage to show that person?
Answer: I don’t know yet. I’m just at the beginning of my journey but I like what I’ve done so far. As far as spirituality goes, I still have a long way to travel before that gets anywhere close to a declaration and that journey probably won’t ever end. Constant growth is a good thing and is kind of my goal.
Update Three: I’ve lost some weight
Now, I’m not talking about the weight that my family thinks I’ve lost whenever I go out there every other weekend. I just have to laugh because it’s not like I’ve lost 20 pounds in the last two weeks (if this is you, that is not healthy and you should see a doctor) but they act like that’s exactly what’s happened. I guess it’s a nice confidence boost that I should flip my hair to and suck up all that praise.
Anyways, the weight that I am talking about is the 50 pounds that I’ve worked my ass off (literally) to kick to the curb. After four years of college where I gained the freshmen fifteen each year I diffidently had some poundage to loose. It’s been two years since I’ve graduated and I can confidently say that I am happy that it’s gone. I still have another goal to loose more but, as long as I’m eating healthy, am not a couch potato, and feel pretty good on a regular basis then: I’m OK. I think that my mental health should be on the forefront now so that’s where I’m putting it. I still have major body image issues and my relationship with food is still in the love-hate category but, hey I’m getting there.
Update Four: We got a Beta!
This update isn’t really all that important but I’m super excited so I’m sharing with you 🙂
This is our new Beta Fish named Harvey. He likes to pick rocks up, put them down and swim away when his sister visits his vista view.
I hope you enjoyed and have a great day!